“i’m p. sure your soul is either floral or polka dotted”
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i’m mad because i went downtown to meet elucubrare this afternoon and managed to (a) scrape up my left palm and knee (through jeans, no less) on the west village cobblestones and (b) fuck up the front derailleur on my bike, poor baby! it doesn’t even wheel rn, i had to lug it home on my shoulder—o for a carbon fiber frame! anyway imma hit up Local Bike Shop tomorrow morning, i guess: hopefully they can sort me out without too much delay/$.
but on the bright side i now have cheap ~limited edition~ gold eyeliner and a pair of super-cute plaid flats—like, so cute, probably i should take some pictures—and tomorrow evening is C and J’s housewarming party? also the last couple of days have been so so lovely, i was drunkenly voiceposting about them last night and then my phone died in the middle and i lost the whole draft. but basically:
wednesday night i had dinner with my roommate from harvard, who’s a giant sweetie; thursday i was six minutes late to greek class and my professor totally called me out about it, which was pretty awkward, but oh well; then after class i walked my summer buddy home, and got to see her (adorable) apartment and meet her boyfriend, so i feel like we’re on New Terms of Intimacy, yay! then biked downtown to tutor, then back up to psych lecture, then back down to dinner with C and R and R’s roommate at candle cafe: such fresh complex delightful food, cocktails and company ditto! i am always horribly bashful around R in company, because i never know how touchy/flirty it’s okay to be and so i end up in an almost wholly platonic mode as a result; but on the whole i have some faith that time will sort these things out.
and then after dinner C and i went to J’s coworker’s studio’s voice recital at bar thalia, which was a totally excellent example of the genre and made me (a) cry and (b) miss singing desperately; and then afterwards we went out for sangria with some of the performers, and maybe i might do a singing thing with them???? and then afterwards i drunkenly texted R to say good night, and he texted me back an adorable even drunker text, gosh i like him so much and i wish i managed to be half as delightful around him as i am around C and J! but i guess conveniently there’s a lot of overlap there, and i expect i’ll figure out better how to be my Best Self more often given time. (i am practicing patience, really i want All The Kisses but hopefully there is a nonzero number of those in my future!)
i kind of desperately need to clean my room and do some homework, which is really to say that nothing is actually that out of control but i start to get anxious when things get sloppy because trendlines worry me? but really things are okay, my hand is sore where i thumped the pavement and it’s making me out of sorts but i have a Plan for tomorrow and probably it’ll involve some hugs even! just gotta put myself to bed so i can wake up for it. :))#journaling #elucubrare #C #R #feelingsblogging
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